Computer Class
By Kazz Falcon
I was so excited about computer
class
I haven’t done it in
a few years
I proudly showed up for class
No one was around
I was the ONLY student
She made an appearance
“You need to learn on
your own by the computer.”
Say what?
I can’t learn that way
I need a teacher to help me
I really need the book
It will help me to get through
class easier
I got stuck a few times
I was frustrated and mad
It took a long time to solve
the problem
Yet, no one was around to help
me
I was all alone
I couldn’t get any work
done
I was disappointed
I gave up the computer class
Homeless Roots
By Kazz Falcon
I really want to take the computer
class again
The last class was a disaster
I took the subway to the shelter
I walked in the building
I mentioned to the guy I want
to take the class
He forgot that I was there
before
I lived there for six months
in 2002
The moment I served my time,
I didn’t want to go back
Not even for the computer class
In a way, I crawled back on
my knees
Once again, I was back for
the class
I should have continue the
class after I left
But I didn’t
I want to get as far away from
them possible
The moment you leave, no one
wants to go back
I didn’t like the shelter
I was so grateful that they
helped me
I have to start from the beginning
AGAIN
I may have forgotten some stuff
by now
I returned to the homeless
roots
Suicide Guilt
By Kazz Falcon
My good friend killed himself
He had some trouble
Things wasn’t going his
way
He had a hard time finding
a job
He just lost his place
He had nobody to count on
I felt so guilty
I should have been there for
him
I was too wrapped up with my
own life
I hardly had any time for him
He comes and goes at my place
I could have stop him
I know I could
I was his only hope
I wasn’t there for him
I let him down
I won’t forgive myself
He whispered in my ear
It was that time to end it
It deafened my ears
I didn’t want to hear
it
I took a long walk
I denied the suicide threat
I didn’t want to be there
when he killed himself
I can’t handle the suicide
I heard a shot in the house
I ran as fast I could to the
house
I was too late
I wished I did something to
save him
He left the letter in my bed
Gay Marriage
By Kazz Falcon
That’s what I really
want
The relationship was strong
enough
Our love was solid as a rock
We were committed to each other
We were ready to take the next
step
Marriage was on the horizon
It’s about that time
We were secure in the relationship
Something wasn’t that
right
We can’t get marriage
We were a gay couple
We were truly in love
We want equal rights
Then, we will have the freedom
Why do we want a marriage license?
We had love and commitment
That’s good enough reason
to get marry
War Protest
By Kazz Falcon
Hell, no
We won’t fight!
We don’t believe in it
It will cost more pain
Innocense people will be kill
Killing was never right
It was too painful
The families suffers too
We united in peace, not war
We must stop the war
War wasn’t worth the
time or the pain
War costs millions of dollars
Helping the world is helping
ourselves
War was not a solution
It’s an added problem
for everyone
When will the war stops?
We already have enough hate
in the world
Let’s work toward a society
we can be proud of
The future generations will
be proud of us
We desired for a better world
The protest gives us a cause
We were sick and tired of the
bloodbath
War doesn’t do us any
good
When it’s called for,
don’t avoid the war protest
Sleepless Nights
By Kazz Falcon
What have I done?
I wasn’t able to get
enough sleep
The guilt was eating me inside
I thought it was the right
thing to do at the time
I let myself down
I let the baby down
I shouldn’t have done
what I did
I may have kill the baby
I have no ideal if someone
find him
Damn, I felt so ashamed
I could have drop him off at
the local hospital
No questions ask
I wasn’t even thinking
straight
I regretted of having a baby
It was an one night stand
I put a life at stake in the
dumpster
He may be raise in an orphanage
Perhaps, a nice family may
adopt him
I will never see him again
I supposed to take care of
him
It was the motherly thing to
do
I can’t get him back
I gave up my rights
I threw my baby in the trash
I cried about every night
I wished I had him in my arms
again
He needs his mommy
May God take care of him
I need to take some pills
I must stop having sleepless
nights
Dumpster Baby
By Kazz Falcon
I won't reveal who I am
I couldn't
The police will arrest me for
child endangerment
But I can give you many reasons
I can't give the baby a life
it's deserves
My parents don't know I was
pregnant
They don't believe in premartial
sex
I went against their beliefs
They will be disappointed in
their little girl
I told my boyfriend that I
was pregnant
He ran out on me - that b
a s t a r d
He told me that he wanted a
kid
One day, I came home from work
All his things was missing
He didn't even left a Dear
John letter
I couldn't believed that he
will hurt us like that
I thought we were perfect together
I was left with nothing
All I had was a bun in the
oven
Nine monthes later, I went
to the alley
I found a spot to have the
baby
It was an quite dark alley
No one suspects a thing
I had my baby behind the dumpster
The baby boy was innocense
I kissed him goodbye on the
head
I was doing the right thing
for him
I can't provide him a good
life
I had nothing to give him
He became a dumpster baby
Father’s Right
By Kazz Falcon
My girlfriend accidentally
got pregnant
She wasn't ready for motherhood
We always use condoms
I was capable of raising our
kid
She doesn't felt like it was
a good ideal
We had different views
She wants to finish college
and get an career
I finished collage and had
a good paying job
We can afford the baby
She doesn't see it that way
at all
I won't abandon her during
the pregnancy
We create a special baby
The baby deserves to live
She thought about ending the
pregnancy
I was upset to hear that sad
news
So much, I wanted that baby
She can't get of our baby
She has no right to get an
abortion
I won't allow her
Abortion is wrong
If she does, she will be a
murderer
She will be killing our love
too
I have to stop her
She won't get rid of my baby
She has no right to end the
pregnancy
I still had a legal connection
It was my father's rights
Kackle
By Kazz Falcon
Youthful Queer
He was so much into the clubkids
His idol was Michael Alig
He found his identify early
in life
He was gay and a clubkid at
heart
He has an close knit of friends
His very own clubkids to party
with
He was an natural and an original
People say he's unique
It was a nice way of saying
he's a freak
He likes to march to the beat
of electronic percussion machine
He wants to see who steals
his heart
He's very special
He wasn't shy
He was outgoing and flamboyant
Is he the second coming of
Michael Alig?
Don't get in his way
He will party your ass out
like Angel
Someday, his true prince will
come
They will live happily ever
after
In clubland, where the clubkids
rules
Only Time Will Tell
By Kazz Falcon
I just finished my first book
two months ago
Would it be a success?
I really don’t know
Not enough people knew I was
The publisher took a chance
on me
I hoped I was the readers’
liking
My art was so real that it
brings something out
I was quite nervous
The book will come out early
next year
I have never experience this
before
Maybe, just maybe, the book
was controversy
They will tend to stay away
Yet, it could bring more readers
in
Everyone wants to know what’s
the controvery about
I get good compliments
Sometimes, they were harsh
I considered that’s a
good thing
Everyone was an critic about
something
I won’t let it get to
me
As long they likes the book,
I will be okay
Who knows?
They may not understand my
art
Therefore, they won’t
buy it
They won’t waste a dime
on me
That was fine too
Not everyone will be a success
on their first try
Only time will tell
Baby Moses Law
By Kazz Falcon
I thought about leaving my
baby in the dumpster
I wasn’t ready to be
a mother yet
I was pregnant from a one night
stand
It was the biggest mistake
of my life
I don’t want to put my
life on hold
I was seventeen year old
I dropped out of school
I ran away from home
I was ashamed of the situation
I learned there was a law
Baby Moses Law was the break
I needed
I can leave the baby at a hospital,
police, fire or EMS station
No one will say a thing; no
questions ask
We can leave the baby at those
places – day or night
We won’t go to jail either
I heard horror stories about
the dumpster babies
I can’t put my child
through that
It wasn’t fair to him
No one may not find him at
all
I didn’t want to be charge
with attempted murder
The dumpster was the wrong
thing to do
I got the courage
I dropped the baby off at the
police station
I sadly kissed him goodbye
I will never see him ever again
I was glad he was in safe hands
The police will take good care
of him
I gave the baby a chance to
grow and live
Thank God for Baby Moses Law
Hope For The Baby
By Kazz Falcon
It was time to put out the
trash
The dumpster truck will be
here in an hour
I had enough to gather up the
trash
I took out the trash outside
I heard some noices coming
from somewhere
I thought it was my imaginary
I walked closer to the dumpster
It was getting louder
I noticed it was coming from
inside the dumpster
Man, we had rats again!
We needs a new landlord
I opened the dumpster
I saw small hands moving
I found it odd
I uncovered it
Dear Lord!
It was a baby
I can’t believed it
I grabbed the innocense baby
I felt terrible and angry
How could someone do such a
thing?
The baby can’t defend
himself
The terrible person put the
baby’s life in danger
I called 911 on the cell phone
I hold the baby till the ambulance/police
came
I prayed to God
They checked out the baby
They mentioned I found him
in the nick of time
I praised God
There was hope for the baby
The Innocense Baby’s
Death
By Kazz Falcon
My friends and I was going
home from the clubs
We took a short cut through
the alley
We came across something odd
We saw a kitten playing with
a newly pacifier
We wondered where it came from
We walked closer to the playful
kitten
We were shocked
Someone left a baby in the
alley
We noticed the baby wasn’t
breathing
Dear Lord!
We feared for the worst
The baby might be dead
Thank God the hospital was
close by
We took the baby to the E/R
We anxiously waited in the
waiting room
The police took our information
The doctors came out with the
news
The baby didn’t make
it
He was dead for a few hours
We felt guilty and cried
We didn’t find the baby
on time
The baby will never see the
light of day
We went home with the kitten
We didn’t know the name
of the baby
We named the kitten after the
baby - Hope
Hope was the pefect name for
both of them
There was some hope for abandon
babies
Secret Code
By Kazz Falcon
The secret code saved my life
Last week, I walked home from
school
Of course, I was alone
My parents couldn’t pick
me up
They were working at that time
I was minding my own business
This one guy drove up beside
me
I didn’t pay any attention
to him
He kept on trying to get my
attention
He mentioned he was lost
I explained an adult can help
him
He fed me another line
“Have you seen my lost
dog?”
I wouldn’t answer him
He confessed that my parents
told him to pick me up
I still didn’t trust
him
I know better than that
I asked, “What’s
the code?”
He was dumbstruck
He claimed there wasn’t
time for the code
He opened up the passenger’s
door
I screamed very loud
He saw someone running up
He zoomed off in his car
I explained to the stranger
that he was up to no good
He called the police on his
cell phone
The police arrived for the
statement
I told them the same story
They asked the stranger some
questions
Thankfully, he gave them his
license plate
The police took me straight
home
The police was glad I had a
secret code
My Whole Life
By Kazz Falcon
My whole life was a lie
I was so freaking angry
The news hit me like a ton
of bricks
I had a hard time dealing with
it
How could it be?
I felt like I wasn’t
a part of the family
Yet, they kept this horrible
secret
I can’t forgive them
at all
I don’t know who I was
any more
I can’t go on like this
I have to search for my real
mom
The “parents” claimed
I was their son
I don’t believe that
crap
They don’t care a damn
about me
I want my real mommy in my
life
She supposed to be there for
me
She supposed to love me
She supposed to take care of
me
She supposed to support me
She supposed to…
Just like the family that raised
me
I realized I don’t need
my real mother at all
She doesn’t want any
part of me
I don’t give a damn about
her
I never want to know the reason
why
My parents were good enough
for me
They still love me as their
own
I know who I was
I was a part of a real family
I was so loved all my whole
life
