Goodbye, Los Angeles
By Kazz Falcon
Goodbye, Los Angeles
I didn’t want to be homeless
in LA for a third time
Rebuilt my life in LA twice
was enough
I was excited to hear from
a good friend on New Year Eve
He picked me up on Western/Hollywood
the next day
I took a chance on San Francisco,
not San Diego
We both had a ball
He needed to go home after
a few days
I stayed to know SF much better
I mostly hang out at the gay
part of town
Home is where the heart is
Come nightfall, I tried a homeless
shelter
I slept on the hard floor by
the cold window
I couldn’t get enough
sleep
I searched for more shelters
A priest mentioned, “SF
go by a lottery system.”
It was a lot tougher in SF
than LA
I packed up my things and went
home
Hello, Los Angeles
He Becomes Him
By Kazz Falcon
He becomes him
He ex was an alcoholic
He vowed he wouldn’t
be like him
He allowed his drinking to
get out of control
As time goes by, he becomes
him
Poetry
By Kazz Falcon
Poetry
How could I put it in words?
Some feelings are hard to do
As I write, the poems are natural
I must find a way
Trust me
My feelings on paper will cease
the pain
Poetry
My Mistakes
By Kazz Falcon
My mistakes
I went against my own beliefs
Fast love doesn’t work
I met this guy at a club
We like each other and we suddenly
became a couple
Soon after, gifts followed
then the apartment talk
I wasn’t sure of living
together
He promised he would take care
of everything
The apartment was in his name,
the bills was in mine
I just wanted to be fair of
living together
I want a part of the responsible
too
His sister let us to use her
car
I got my driver’s license
to take him places
We had our first fight
I didn’t pick him up
from La Dome, his work
“Hello, the car broke
down on Rossmore!”
I saw his nasty side
I should have left him right
then and there
My mistakes
God Or Satan
By Kazz Falcon
God
Satan
God
Satan
God
Satan
Hmm, it must be Satan on Earth
Life is hell
When I die, it would be God
in heaven
Satan controls the planet Earth
The heavens are forever in
God’s hands
What side you want to be on?
God or Satan
Everyone Is A Sinner
By Kazz Falcon
Everyone Is A Sinner
With Jesus Christ, we are winners
We are born sinners unlike
Jesus Christ
Adam and Eve were innocence
till Satan tricked them
They ate the apple and both
were naked in God’s eyes
God cast them out of Garden
of Eden
Satan was pleased to get control
of earth
God was displease that everyone
is born a sinner
But God had a back up plan
- Jesus Christ
Jesus wasn’t born a sinner
- he wasn’t born of the flesh
Jesus was born of the spirit
from heavens above
We are born from the flesh
on earth
Therefore, everyone is a sinner
The Choice
By Kazz Falcon
The choice
The voice explained I must
make a decision
“kick him out or let
him in.”
My lover was missing for a
couple of nights
I knew he was partying alone
or with friends
It wasn’t his first time
He didn’t call or stop
by in the car
I had it up here with his partying
and sex
It made me sad that he doesn’t
want any help
I couldn’t do anything
He must do it on his own
I listened to my inner being,
“Leave him in the cold.”
He finally showed up one night
I was about to tell him - go
somewhere else
I opened the door
He stood there, badly bruise
from the car accident
The choice became another choice
Nurse him back to health or
leave him in the cold
The choice
The Street Again
By Kazz Falcon
The Street Again
I let myself down
I broke my promise
I vowed I would never be homeless
again
I also promised that I would
do anything to stay of the street
Two times, I claimed to be
a druggie/alcoholic
I went to rehab in Long Beach
and Los Angeles
I was desperate to have a home
no matter what
This time, I ended up at a
shelter at my lover’s expense
His drinking had a dynamo effect
He was in a car accident, badly
hurt
He lost the car, the job and
the apartment
We supposed to live at his
brother’s on Crenshaw
They had a big fight
I knew it was too good to be
true
He moved to his sister’s
in Whittier
I became homeless in LA once
again
The street again
The Beatings
By Kazz Falcon
The beatings changed my life
It exchanged something I desire
left behind,
A normal fully life with lots
of happiness
Hit me in the stomach
My passion utterly went away
The hopes and dreams astray
from my gasp
The dope I was screamed out
loud
I lost focus from the beatings
-
Homelessness, alcohol lover,
losing faith
The dark clouds were too emotional
for me
The unhappiness became my snack
I wanted the passion back
In my life, all the drama was
whack
I went through so much drama
this past few years
I need to reclaim the passions
and my life
In order to save me from further
beatings
The beatings
It Seems Weird
By Kazz Falcon
It seems weird
Here I am standing in front
of a billboard
There I was on the ad with
the #1 book in the nation
I was glad when I finally became
somebody
I was mad as hell that nobody
took my serious
I came a long way from the
shelter
I still couldn’t believed
my dream
It finally happened after all
those years
A sweet lady made it happen
I wouldn’t trade her
friendship the world
Her friendship I cherished
a great deal
I was still in awe over the
billboard
My name was on the billboards
across the USA
Everybody would know who I
was
After all, it seems weird
Two Timing
By Kazz Falcon
Two timing
Why is my lover doing that?
I wondered if he was sending
me a message
I haven’t confronted
him
I just can’t
It’s too painful to talk
I should take a long walk
It would do me some good
I prayed to God for food of
thought
I stayed away to gather my
thoughts
God gave my an answer - the
pussy
I went home for a little chat
I grabbed one thing I could
count on
The pussy was my only true
friend
My ex lover can have everything
else
Everything else but the pussy
Two timing
My Only Kid
By Kazz Falcon
My only kid
He told me something heartbreaking
I wasn’t bold enough
to face him
He was old enough to make his
own decisions
His gayness destroyed my grandmother’s
vision
I couldn’t bare the thought
I tried to stare right into
his eyes
I cried that I couldn’t
be a grandmother
Why couldn’t it be someone
else’s child?
I shouldn’t be hard on
him
But, damn, why my only kid?
A dreadful thought crossed
my mind
Did I raise him wrong?
Maybe, I didn’t mother
him enough
I raised him as a single parent
So many questions
Why my only kid?
The Future
By Kazz Falcon
The future
I’m going to make it
happen somehow
Somebody would publish my book
of poems
Anybody should take me serious
Nobody could turn me down
Everybody would get wind of
me
My poems are the star attraction
They could relate to any of
my poems
That’s the key of my
success
I don’t care for fame
or fortune
I dare to admit
The poems could make a different
in their lives
Only I’m well known through
word of mouth
I would be happy
As long I change somebody’s
life for the better
No matter what lies before
me
I’m looking forward to
the future
Please, Pretty Please
By Kazz Falcon
Please, pretty please
This is a cry for help
Nobody take me serous
They believed I’m not
smart enough
Those bastards!
Yes, I was in Special Ed in
elementary school
Only because I have a speech
problem
And I was a slow learner
It isn’t my fault that
I was BORN SPECIAL
God wanted me to be that way
throughout my life
I honestly believed God gave
me a gift
The gift of writing
I’m a natural born artist
My writing is 100% better than
my talking
They could understand me through
writing
Only if they give me a chance
Only if they take me serious
Only if they answer my cry
for help
Please, pretty please
Why, Oh, Why?
By Kazz Falcon
Why, oh, why?
Why does my lover make my life
miserable?
He kept on sharpening his knife
for some stupid reason
This couldn’t be rabbit
season
I’m not Bugs Bunny
Porky Pig, yes
Oink, oink
I couldn’t be a pig either
Then again, my life stinks
Oh, when would it end?
He’s more interest in
alcohol than me
He can’t have both -
alcohol and me
Since alcohol clouded his mind
I must let him go
It would be easy thou
I don’t love him as much
I used to
Why does my lover make my life
miserable?
Why, oh, why?
