Promise Rings
By Kazz Falcon
I truly love my girlfriend
so much
I will do anything for her
She was that special
I decided to give her something
fabulous
I invited our parents over
for dinner
No one suspected a thing
I sprung it in a desert
Everyone thought I was proposing
her
Hmm, in a way, I was
We want to finish collage first
I put the ring on her finger
I pledged my love and my faith
in our love
I mentioned that we could withhold
sex
We weren’t ready for
sex
We don’t believe in premarital
sex
I gave her the other promise
ring
This one, she put it on my
finger
We were committed to each other
in our love
We vowed we would never take
them off
Our parents were happy to hear
that
Our love was as pure as the
promise rings
Cold Feet
By Kazz Falcon
Few months ago, I proposed
marriage to my girlfriend
She gladly accepted the ring
We were both on cloud nine
Things were fabulous between
us
All our friends were happy
for us
The wedding day was getting
closer
I was getting nervous
I pondered about something
Was I doing the right thing?
I know I love her with all
my heart
I was having second thoughts
I hoped it wasn’t a big
mistake
It couldn’t be
Our love wasn’t fake
We weren’t rushing into
things
She wasn’t pregnant
Thank God
Maybe, I wasn’t ready
for the big change
I can’t be afraid of
the commitment
Perhaps, it was my freedom
Our lives wouldn’t be
the same
I hoped I get over the cold
feet
Low Self Esteem
By Kazz Falcon
I had low self-esteem
I don’t believe in myself
I wasn’t doing well in
school
Some students made fun of me
They called me stupid
Hey, I was doing the best I
could
My best wasn’t that good
I turned to drugs
It made me to feel go good
inside
I was comfortable with myself
I didn’t want to let
go of the feeling
It was an awesome high
I had sex with older men too
Life couldn’t be any
better for me
The mean students can’t
put me down
They won’t make me cry
The drugs was my escape from
the abuse
I won’t pay any attention
to those fools
I wasn’t the same person
any more
I regained confidence in myself
I really need the drugs
I won’t have low self-esteem
Feelings Of Guilt
By Kazz Falcon
My wife had Alzheimer’s
disease
She didn’t recognized
me at all
Even our kids were strangers
I visited her about every day
Each passing day, my hope demised
I couldn’t cope with
it
My kids noticed I was depressed
I took a break from my wife
I reduced my visits
I found companionship in a
neighbor
She was what I needed
My kids approved my new relationship
I was happy in a long time
Yet, I felt so guilty for cheating
on my wife
I wanted to break it off with
the new love
Then again, I don’t want
to
My wife will never ever get
better
Her deficits was more obvious
She had delusions
She had hallucinations
She forgets events in her life
history
She had a decrease in knowledge
of recent events
I can’t go on with an
absentee wife
I will always love her
I had to move on with my life
I wished I didn’t had
the feelings of guilt
Where Thou Art, Father?
By Kazz Falcon
I can’t stand my father
I really hate him
He disappointed me in many
ways
I had so much anger
He doesn’t want anything
to do with me
He wasn’t there for me
He don’t show up for
my activities
He don’t do fun things
with me
He claimed he was busy with
work
He always let me down
Even mom noticed it
She saw the sadness in my eyes
She comforts me every time
She was a much better parent
than him
He broke my 8-year-old heart
a thousand of times
I can’t depend on him
for anything
He completely changed over
the years
He loved his job more than
us
He doesn’t give a damn
how we feel
His promises were worthless
I can’t put up with his
lies any more
I wished he would leave us
We were better off without
him
He hurt my feelings
I cried when he doesn’t
show up
Did I do something wrong?
I wasn’t any trouble
I was a very nice kid
I get good grades
I do my chores
I behaved every day
I wasn’t that important
I resented him very much
I don’t have a real father
He wasn’t a father
He was just a complete stranger
Where Thou Art, Father?
Running Days
By Kazz Falcon
My husband acts like he is
still single
He always stays out late
He woke up at the normal time
He goes straight to work
I won’t see him till
bedtime
We hardly talk about anything
A baby was on the way
He doesn’t seem to care
I know he was faithful
He forgotten about the baby
and me
I can’t go on like this
It wasn’t doing the pregnancy
any good
We lived with his mother
I don’t get along with
her
The mother believed I was angry
for no reason at all
She mentioned he was still
young; let him run
I disagreed with that statement
He can’t continue on
that way
We supposed to come first in
his life
We must be his top priority
He was on the verge of losing
us
I was sick and tired of his
running days
My Kids
By Kazz Falcon
I loved my kids to death
I didn’t want anything
bad happen to them
I will always watch over them
I was a good mother
For some reason, I can’t
sleep at night
I don’t pace the floors
all night long
I was worry when they don’t
sleep at home
I was afraid that something
bad would happen
I want them home all the time
They were safe in their bed
and under their own roof
They mean everything to me
Anything could happen to them
Someone could kidnap them
Someone could give them a drug
Someone could give them alcohol
Someone could beat them up
Someone could do anything bad
I can’t fathom those
terrible thoughts
Why couldn’t they stay
home?
We lived in a nice neighborhood
We have a big back yard
We have a dog they can play
with
We have video games
We have DVDs
We have the Internet
We have lots of love at home
I was tempted to ground them
Then they won’t go anywhere
I know I can’t hold them
hostage in their home
I wished nothing bad happen
to them
I don’t want to lose
my kids
Buried Bible
By Kazz Falcon
I was nine year old in 1979
I loved reading my Holy Bible
It was my favourite book in
the world
I can’t live without
the bible
It teaches me about love, sin
and God
It made me a better person
One day, I accidentally ripped
a page
I can’t believe it
I ruined the good book
I felt so terrible
I cried
I had a bright ideal
I dug a hole in the back yard
with a spoon
I buried the bible
I thought the guilt would go
away
Boy, I was wrong
Even that misdeed, I felt more
guilty
I let God down again
I didn’t know any better
I couldn’t control my
crying
I feared I would go to hell
My father noticed there was
something wrong
I explained the situation
I didn’t mean any harm
to the bible
He mentioned I did the right
thing
We were Catholics
I was such relieved
The guilt was vanished
My dad brought me a brand new
bible
Tears come down my cheek
I was happy once again
I had my very own bible to
read again
I shouldn’t felt bad
about the buried bible
Irresponsible Parent
By Kazz Falcon
My husband drank too much at
the restaurant
I didn’t want him to
drive
We got in the car
We were on our way home
The young son fell asleep in
the back seat
I tried my best to drive
It was pouring down rain
I couldn’t see straight
Sadly, I was all over the road
I accidentally jumped the curb
I ran into a tree
I was shocked
Our son was in lots of pain
I reached out for him
He couldn’t move
I wasn’t able to get
to him
I forgot the husband was in
the car
No, he wasn’t
He flew through the window
He didn’t had his seatbelt
on
I cried for help
I checked his pulse
I killed my husband
Dear Lord! What have I done?
I heard the ambulance coming
The police showed up moments
later
I told the police the truth
I was driving drunk in the
rain
I thought I was able to drive
Look at the mess I made
My husband was dead
My son was cripple
I felt so ashamed of myself
I had to live with the guilt
for the rest of my life
I was the blame
I should have know better
The alcohol clouded my judgment
I was an irresponsible parent
Open Window
By Kazz Falcon
I love sleeping at night with
an open window
The cold wind breezes through
the house
It felt so comfortable
I always sleep like a baby
One night, I was sound asleep
in bed
Someone entered the room
He got in bed with me
He put his hand on my leg
Finally, my husband was home
from work
It was dark in the room
I could barely see his face
We begun kissing passionate
I noticed he was a little rough
I mentioned he was hurting
me
He didn’t care at all
He wanted me right then and
there
I couldn’t stop him
He was too strong for me
I was helpless
I screamed out loud
“Stop it! Stop it! Someone
help me,” I yelled
My dear old husband wanted
to rape me
He covered up my mouth
I was scared for my life
Out of the blue, someone broke
down the door
They got into a fight
He escaped through the window
He turned on the light
I was dumbstruck
Dear Lord! My husband saved
me from danger
I had no ideal it was someone
else
I was safe once again
He looked around the bedroom
The window screen was missing
Crime invited itself through
the open window
Teenager Sex
By Kazz Falcon
I like this one guy
We were both in the 10th grade
I knew him since middle school
We became a couple
We go to the movies, roller
skating and etc
Lately, he was interest in
sex with me
The other teens was doing it
Why not us?
We truly love each other
We was faithful to each other
There was no reason to put
it off
Come again?
I didn’t want to end
up pregnant
Of course, there were STDs
too
He mentioned he had some condoms
He stole them from his big
brother
He figured nothing bad will
happen
The condom was protection
I wasn’t sure about it
Yes, I loved him a lot
I don’t want to put my
life on the line
I wanted to remain virgin
He claimed I don’t love
him
He believed I was dragging
him along
I wouldn’t do such a
thing
He got mad at me
He threatened to broke up with
me
I was shocked to hear that
I cried my eyes
I didn’t want to lose
him
He was special to me
He comforted me and held me
We ended up having teenager
sex
Guilty Sex
By Kazz Falcon
We finished having teenager
sex
Suddenly, he had other things
to do
He promised he would see me
later
He kissed me on the cheek
He left me alone in the bed
Damn, why did we have sex?
I was vulnerable to him
He didn’t want any part
of me
I felt like a trashy whore
I should have tell him to leave
He pressured me into having
sex
He knew I didn’t want
to
The sex wasn’t right
I was mad at myself
I let my guard down
He made me miserable inside
He wanted to broke up with
me
Yet, I couldn’t lose
him
He was the one for me
I knew it in my heart
I betrayed myself
It was a shame we didn’t
wait until marriage
After all, it was guilty sex
Statuary Rape
By Kazz Falcon
I had sex with my young girlfriend
I was older than her
I was 27 year old; she was
17
I got to admit
I didn’t ask her parents
permission
She was ready to give her to
me
It was a special moment for
us
I won’t ran out on her
I truly love her
She declared that her parents
wouldn’t mind
I trusted her
I believed in her word
We became one in my bed
She went home after the lovemaking
Her mother noticed the glow
in her face
She was quite please with the
daughter
It was the perfect time for
us
Her father found out about
us
He overheard them talking
He was pretty furious
He claimed I rape their little
girl
I don’t believe that
for a minute
The sex was out of love
He lost his innocence daughter
He vowed I would pay for hurting
his daughter
He pressed charges against
me
The mother was against that
She doesn’t believe the
daughter was rape
He forbid me to see her ever
again
He thought I ruined her life
I was in jail for statuary
rape
Underage Sex
By Kazz Falcon
I wasn’t a free man
My life was ruined
People see me different
They viewed me as a sexual
predator
It’s the farthest from
the truth
I dated her for a few months
We fell in love
I finally met her single father
He was suspicious of me
He wondered why I was seeing
a 17 year old
Huh?
I was floored by that comment
She wasn’t upfront with
her age
I truly believed she was 20
She thought it didn’t
matter
Age was a number
Love is love no matter what
love is
He hated that I was seeing
his daughter
He claimed I should be seeing
someone my age
We didn’t have a problem
with our love
She was fond of me as much
I was of her
I put his mind at ease
I will never hurt her
I promised him I will wait
till she turn 18
She graduated from high school
She wanted to end her special
day
She convinced me she was ready
I didn’t refused her
I didn’t check with the
father first
We had sex any way
I thought she was telling the
truth
Her father gave her the okay
I was in jail for underage
sex
Unhappy Home
By Kazz Falcon
I wasn’t happy living
at home
My parents fought all the time
They blamed each other for
everything
Neither of them shows me any
attention
I was sad inside
I was a good kid
I wasn’t getting good
grades
I thought it was my fault
I did something wrong
They claimed I was the root
of the problem
I tend to believe that
If I was never born, they will
be happier
I don’t know why I deserve
the abuse
All kids wanted to be love
by a parent
I was in a hateful environment
They never ever wanted me at
all
I was a mistake they foolish
made
I was paying for their mistake
Why me?
I was innocence
I didn’t have a choice
to come into this world
I just happened
Presto, I was born 9 months
later
They felt like they were forced
into marriage
I was the blame for the fighting
That was my unhappy home
