HIV

Tears Fallen

By Kazz Falcon

Tears Fallen

My eyes was troubled

By the sea, I looked up and cursed

HIV gave me a big fright

I stood away from the light

He saw the pain in my eyes from above

Jesus, I seek no more love

It brought me down to my knees

I cried for help and peace

I tried my best to remain calm

My sorrows laid in both palms

Where is my life going?

Somewhere out there

Life is coming to a end soon

Tomorrow may never come

I need more time

My work in this world is not done

My soul was empty of you

I was alone

It’s hard to cope with HIV

You was my last hope

You released everything negative from my spirit

Strength came upon me to be HIV positive

Thanks for the gift of life

I put down the knife

You moved me so deeply

Joyful tears fallen

I Slept

By Kazz Falcon

I slept horrible

I kept a terrible secret

I wept alone till I told somebody

He held me in his arms

I was not bold enough to go at it alone

Would my life fold away soon?

I could live 10 or 25 more years

I shouldn’t listen to my fears

He was such a dear

His comfort warmed my heart

I accepted being HIV positive with his help

I slept peacefully

HIV Positive

By Kazz Falcon

HIV Positive

I can’t be so negative

It won’t bring me down fast

I want my HIV status to last

Take better care of me

Make it my #1 goal

Why dig myself into a hole?

My life was on a roll

Going too fast will take a toll

I sat down on the couch

I really thought about my HIV status

Hit me like a bolt of lightning

LIVE LIFE

It gave me a reason to enjoy life

I can’t sit there and do nothing

I want to do something

My life wasn’t done, not by a long shot

HIV status put me on the spot

Stay active

Do the best I can

I won’t give up for being HIV positive

Shame On Me

By Kazz Falcon

Shame On Me

I blamed others

HIV came upon me

I didn’t ask for that request

I guessed it wouldn’t happen to me

I shouldn’t be so stupid

It couldn’t happened no other way

I kept on doing unsafe sex

I slept with lots of men

I wept like a baby

I accepted being HIV positive

Thoughts about why I did it

I caught me for being so stupid

It taught me a lesson

Why blame others?

Shame on me

The Same Path

By Kazz Falcon

The Same Path

He came upon it

Searching for sex

He doesn’t care about his life

As long as he gets it

It was so wrong of him

Why do meaningless sex?

Sex must be enjoy with someone he care

Trust his loving heart

He lusted after other men

It got him all sorts of problems

In my case, I was HIV positive

Things changed for the better

I waited for Mr. Right

The bait was true love

My past life was HIV negative

I was so sure to be HIV positive

I stopped doing unsafe sex

I dropped my chances of reinfection

He danced for dangerous sex

I hope he wasn’t that stupid

If not, welcome to the same path

The Trap

By Kazz Falcon

The Trap

I wrapped myself in a mess

Thinking about it caused stress

Which isn’t good for my HIV status

The unhappy mood lowered my t cells

I should escape it by going in a shell

It would put me at ease

I could end up in a decease world

Only I don’t pass the problem

I wished I forgot about it

Why dish it out with the problem?

I fished for answers and a solution

It caused me no good

A friend gave me food for thought

“Annoy the person and the problem.

Let it work itself out of it.”

Some stupid things get the best of me

I fell for the trap

HIV Homeless

By Kazz Falcon

HIV Homeless

I lived in Downtown Los Angeles

My life was upside down

I searched for an escape

There was none beyond my reach

Where are the angels?

Here I was

I was struggling with HIV

I need to get out of skid row

I pleaded with the real world

They turned me down

I fell flat on my face

It gave me frowns

I cried from my eyes

I felt like no one believe me

My life melted away into the darkness

The darkness surrounded me

I found something in my bag

“A sound mind?” I asked myself

I had no other choice from the sight of things

I was sad

I was mad at the whole world

I would be glad...

Till it’ll be over soon

It’s too bad

I used the gun on me

Tomorrow will never come

For this HIV homeless

Changes

By Kazz Falcon

Changes

I opened the door

I walked through it

I saw my life going somewhere

Whether it’s bad or good

I can’t go back

The door locked itself

I entered a land to explore

I don’t like what I see

I stood in awe

I was there once before

It was a land full of sexual people

They wanted more of me

Some I did before

When would it end?

The temptation was there

They whispered in my ears

“Go for it.”

“The new guys heard so many good things about you.”

“Give them a turn.”

“We are here to please you.”

“You won’t regret it.”

I was already living it down

The land increased my chances of reinfection

I really don’t want that

I won’t fall to the prey of lust

A wall shot up around me

Sweet sounds came from God’s angels

I found myself back on the street of life

It was for the better or the worse

Changes

The Last Place

By Kazz Falcon

The Last Place

Wherever it may be

Nobody looked there

Somebody searched elsewhere

Many places before that

I traced my tracks

I can’t remember the steps I took

It happened so fast

I want to relive the past

My life depended on my last HIV test

I want to make the most of my life

I lost my lover to AIDS

Now, it was my turn for the results

If only I find the papers

The result was very important to me

Why take the test again?

I want to rest easy tonight in bed

I’ve been a nervous wreck this past week

Today was my appointment

Where in hell is my paper? There it was

In the last place

I have the spirit of an alien.
I need to find my own kind.
I must shed off the dreadful human skin.
It is very uncomfortable.