Copyright © 2003 Kazz Falcon
Monday, August 27, 2001
The week of Monday, August
27, 2001 has tremendous effect on my life. I didn't PLAN for being in this situation! It was part of God's plans. God wouldn't give us something we can't HANDLE. We don't know what would
happen tomorrow. We must live for today
only. That is life for us. Expect the UNEXPECTED. There are some things we can't control. For the latest,
please read on.
I'm 31 years old and on the
verge of being homeless again.
My lover, Miguel Garcia, haven't been home since Monday afternoon, last night was the third night. I know he didn't leave the country; his passport is still here.
I'm thinking of doing something illegal to stay afloat (keeping HIS apartment.) I don't want to be homeless again. I need to do
something fast by the 3rd. the rent
Believe me, I can't afford
HIS APARTMENT or my own. I have limited income.
I WANT NO MONEY OR ANYTHING
ELSE FROM ANYONE! PRAYERS WOULD BE FINE!
If I don't do something fast,
I would lose everything and be homeless once again.
I'm not on THE LEAST, bad credit
I didn't know how I got. The bills are in my name. The landlord DOESN'T know I live with my roomie over 15 months. I always hide from him when the landlord comes a knocking. LOL
My thoughts of the missing
1) The police could have arrest him for driving without a license AND/OR driving drunk.
2) He may end up in the hospital from his drinking problem. For some STUPID REASON, he started
to drink again this month.
3) He may end up DEAD DEAD DEAD!!! It could happen thou. Couple months ago, his problem cause him
to spend a week in the hospital. THE
DOCTOR told him that the next time he drinks, he would be DEAD!!
This moment, my world is falling
apart big time. I have no control of my life.
I might as well do the ILLEGAL
thing to buy me MORE TIME! Doing
something illegal is one of MY OPTION.
I have no time left; the time is running
How can I save money when time
is running out this week? I need to do something by this weekend.
THIS IS NOT YOUR PROBLEM,
GUYS! THANX FOR YOUR CONCERN!
Also, I haven't called the
police to fill out a missing person
report. If the landlord got
wind of it, he may lock the apartment till further notice. I can't afford to call them police or tell the landlord.
I would do ANYTHING at any cost to remain off the street.
And, yes, I DID NOT KILL MY ROOMIE!! ROFL People would already assumed the worse in me.
9/4/01 Update - The NAKED
8/31/01, Friday night - I was online playing game. I heard the car
parked underneath the apartment. 9:30 PM, A hungry Miguel walked in and said "Hi!" I mentioned, "don't talk to me." He got a snack from the kitchen
and went straight to bed. I didn't look at him that night. He looked so bad too!
9/1/01, Saturday morning - I was online once again. He woke up. I
couldn't hold it any longer and lashed out at him. We had a huge fight. He admitted he made a mistake, "I'm sorry." "Sorry is not good enough,"
he was gone for four days. He could have EMAIL me or stop by in the car. He claimed I was online and I should have called his sister's. I don't
know her phone number. Hmm, it
could be both our faults; then again, he had the car! It was UP TO HIM to get in contact with me somehow, some way, no matter what!
I tried to explain that I almost
fill out a missing person report. He didn't listen to me. He got dress to leave. I want to go with him,
but he doesnt want me to go. It
was my day for the post office. He still refused, went straight to the kitchen. I still demanded to go. I did a complete turnaround, "go by yourself,"
which he did. I was thisclose of packing my things.
Hours later, we tried to be
civil! Yeah, right! I demanded to know what happened! He claimed it isn't that important! Hmm, the
drugs must have affected his brain somehow!
Hehe. If someone has been gone over 4 days or more, you would want to know WHAT HAPPENED!! I kept at it till he told me! I mentioned I don't hate him for doing the deed, but he can't leave me hanging
for a couple of days. I felt my
world crashed around me. The next time, if 24 hours pass, I would fill out a missing person report. I won't hesitate at all. Anything could HAPPEN in four
days or 24 hours!
9/3/01, Monday - He laid naked with his eyes closed. I noticed
something off. It could be one thing; another man shaved his ass. I know he didn't do it by himself! There were no cuts, so smoothly!
He claimed he did it. I can't be easier fool! It wasn't like that before he went "missing" for four days last week. I know better. I can't go on living...and
I don't mean SUICIDE!
To all concerned sweet people,
thanx for your help/concern/prayers! I really appreciated it a lot! It means a
lot to me!! Some of you gave me
some valuable advice. Thanx again.
The advice - if you have bills in your name and not on the least,
the landlord couldn't kick you out of the apartment. Your landlord cant do that; he would first need to get a court order. As far as the
law is concerned, it is also your place. He would have to go to court and that can take him 6 months to evict you. He would have to go after your roommate for
the rent since you do not have a contract